There are places I remember...this one is a place of renewal and remembering.
still, serene, calm
light holds me here
listening to my heart beating
my slow and steady breathing
waiting and willing
that which is broken
to find its way
into some new
This is not today's sky.
Today is multiple shades of gray. Still beautiful, and perhaps more fitting to my mood--or rather the weight of my mood.
Not a bad mood but, not exactly light.
I am in a season of starting over.
Well, not even starting yet.
I am in the great in-between.
Somehow... neither here, nor there. Most everything about 'there' is simply gone. And, I have yet to discover what 'here' is exactly.
This season cannot be hurried, or pushed, or tempted.
It will take as long as it takes.
In the meantime, the sky shifts in shapes and colors outside my window
as I move through another day.
Walking through a deep loss right now. I will return.
Sunshine, colors and new plants galore! It is fun to imagine planting a garden (some days more fun to imagine--no backache, weeds to pull or slugs to deal with!)
I won't be planting a garden this year-but that doesn't stop me from walking through the Magnolia Garden Center every chance I get (yes, rain or shine.)
Soon I will look for a little lavender plant for a pot on my deck. Last year it had something that didn't winter well. I love lavender. It is one of the things I miss from our garden at the house--I had several varieties and liked them all. Each had different uses and every one of them smelled wonderful. We'll see. Just taking things slowly, no other choice these days.
Breathe, move slowly, listen, linger where the light is felt, and don't dwell on the difficult--acknowledge it, feel it, and move on. Look for color, see beauty,smell the lavender, choose joy.